ahahahx.
i am feeling so much better already.
i just had a cold war with my mum. [and its still going on]
bUT!
i killed loads of monsters in ms .
sooo.. guess its alright.
hahahs.
today amanda came over.
my sis is staying over at my cousin's.
so..
we had the whole hse to ourselves.
we had a FULL COURSE western cuisine!!!
i meant.
ALMOST a full course.
it excluded a soup and a salad.
hahahs.
we had spaghetti , fries and nuggets!
hahahs.
cool eh?
and we played ms the whole day long.
then amanda went for her training at clementi.
she is going to the nationals for taekwondo!!
and taekwondo orginated from kOrea!!!!
wOOhOOOOOO!!
soo cooL!!
haahs.
i wanted to join it.
BUT.
i dun think i have time .
so...
the whole day passed liddat.
i do not wish to mention what happened at night.
soooo.
its liddat bahs.
i feel satisfied. yet disatisfied.
i feel satisfied just pouring out EVERYTHING in an email.
yet disatisfied in my mum getting angry over the slightest things when i tried my best to give in to her.
oh mann.
what ever the case.
i am still going to bed with my pride unhurt at all.
i dun care.
i will wake up as usual and go for band.
hahahs.
theresa is suffering from cough.
i wonder if shes okay.
first is yue an and now its her.
oh mann.
hahahs.
tml we are gonna do the maths and science project.
so i guess it would cheer me up even more.
i am gonna collect the herbs from pinhui in school.
buy roses with yue an after school at the mall.
and rush back home to open the door for amanda by 1330.
so its sort of a tight schedule.
wahahahx.
but rushing around would be fun.
hahahs.
everyone is gaining back their pleasures in life once more.
more smiles are returning to their owners.
their look brighter than before.
and i love every bit of their smiles.
but i realli hope i won't lose mine.
maybe i am tooo obsessed with my future plans.
i am thinking to far ahead to and rushing to fast to get it.
too fast to actualli treasure and cherish what is right in front of me.
too fast to actualli enjoy myself.
i suddennly feel my obssession is getting me no where.
so i should actualli stretch out both my arms and embrace those pleasant memories i can create.
creation of memories lie in my hands.
i have the power to create happy and sweet memories.
smiling and laughing.
having lotsa fun!
well...
it is nice.
but my creation don't end here.
it creates horrible, embarrassing yet disgraceful memories.
filled with tears. screams. terror.
i dun like them.
but when you recall them in the future.
they seem to funny. so weird.
sometimes even a lesson we can learn from.
but.
wahahax.
i hate to mention it.
but we get paranoid over them.
like me.
i am over- paranoid already.
i still dun wish to get brothers.
and i dun wish to get close to them.
because i dun wanna lose them.
and so far.
i think i haven't gotten over that paranoia.
hahhas.
aren't i a failure.
what ever the case.
i still live life to the fullest.
without scaring myself much of cox.
hahahs.
so.
i hope everyone live life to its best.
i dun wish to give up the hope of having them as friends.
or even brothers.
they can help me regain confidence.
wahahahx.
anyway.
i still see hope.
because if joanne can wait for tt day to come.
i can too.
i might be waiting for a longer period of time.
but if that day ever comes.
it will be worth the waiting.
i dun mind.
so whatever the outcome may be.
i will wait.
and wait i shall!!!!!!
ahhahas.
good nite everyone.
do your HOMEWORK.
hahahs.
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