The distance from being who I think I am and who I can be - its pretty vague. The possibilities between what I want to do and what I can do are endless. The struggles gone through to be someone you think is great, and the perception of what others presume is great. Sharing joy and aspirations over drinks at a round table.

Isolation's the best way to build strength.
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Was scribbling on a book before my pencil gave way; couldn't find a sharpener within reach, so I chose to type instead. Been interacting much with the world off screen and without the aid of the satellite. I know I still rely on it occasionally to keep in touch. But I've been living life much without the usual MSN, laptop, and teevee.

Bacon with eggs on Christmas Eve in the living room. Heading to work to fulfill the painful fate of the mid-shifter (lol). Feels like Jones' gonna be filled with families and everyone else alike, doing their last minute Christmas shopping, and randomly grabbing candy to fill up Christmas stockings.

The past few nights have been really fun - guests were all cheery and a pleasure to serve; much to my delight. And the nights were just great, especially when Yizhen and Huaipeng are back! (:

So everyone's scrambling to purchase Christmas hampers and ingredients for dinner on Christmas Eve. Hot items like truffle oil by Tartuflanghe, the Cherry Panettone and Panettone by Rustichella d'Abruzzo and cranberry sauce were oos a few days back. And baskets dunked at the cashier counters fill up a couple of bags at a go. Kudos to the environmental friendly shoppers who brought their own shopping bags.

Anticipating some really crazy time at Jones in a bit. Huurah to Santa!


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Growing out of old habits is tough. Tougher than growing older at least. Takes time to push yourself out of that old shell. Hurts a little when that shell cracks and everything on the other side starts bursting in. And when you emerge - you start all over again; getting used to the new environment, build another shell of habits and behavior, live with it for a bit till the shell starts cracking again.

Maybe you'll carry inklings of what old habits would rub off onto you. Maybe not.

Confessions of the Blue Sparrow; as it takes flight -
Dragonflies dance to the callings of the night.
A rush towards the brighter skies on the other side.
The prayer for better harvests in the days to come.
Promises beyond the means of one.
Fears of greater expectations.
Failure is foretold.

Kept faith. Keep faith. Keeping faith.
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Create that puzzle of life.
Break the pieces apart.
Make it a mystery.
Put them together.
See it again.
And celebrate it.

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I'd be glad if dreams remained as dreams, something that would never occur in reality - considering the number of bad dreams I find myself in these days. Think exercising would be the way to go to keep myself from all that crap. Hahs.

It has been a while since I really sat down and thought about work. Time to start today. Maybe drowning myself in work would work just as well too.

Another day at Jones with new colleagues! Yuean may join soon too! Looking forward much. (: To another fruitful and fun day at work.
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The more you love.
The more you feel.
The more you care.
The more you sink.
The more you take.
The more you give.
The more you hear.
The more you hurt.
The more you cry.
The more you smile.
The more you laugh.
The more you drift.
The more you stay.
The more you say.
The more you see.
The more you believe.
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What a day.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.