haiis.

" being a observer is painful enough.
to think of a solution to solve their problem is bad enough.
with them asking me for an answer...
its the most cruel thing they can do to me... "

maybe i can understand that feeling..
it maybe the most hurting thing that can ever happen to him...
i want to help him..
but i don't know how..
and i can't.
what can i do..

" the best thing you can do for the person that loves you..
is to love them back..
but if under any circumstances you are unable to do so..
do not give the other person any hope..
for its a torture to them..."

why does she have to torture him like that?
what does she want from him after hurting so much?
maybe she doesn't know...
but i know she can feel it..
the sadness in his eyes..
why does she have to do this?
how i wish she could stop..
how i wish..

maybe i have been thinking too much.
but standing beside and seeing all this happening before me
is unbearable..
if time can heal all wounds..
i wish his wounds would heal faster..
i wish she would keep herself out of his sight until he recovers..
i can do nothing to help.
but only stand at a side and look.


Forget about those things now..
i wanna stay focused on my life and not really indulge myself in other's.
i wanna go out and play!!
i don't want to be tied down...
i wanna be happy!!
and i want everyone to happy too!!
wahhhhh-*
just one more week.
just ONE more.
and i will be free.
wahahahax~
i wanna go to sentosa...
wild wild wet!!
heehee-
ytd i went to amanda's chalet..
then amanda not feeling well..
she vomitted most of the time.
so she gotta go back when we were riding our bikes..
so.. in the end..
theresa and me had to push back 3 bicycles.!!
thanks to wan xin, ke qin, yue an and debbie..
we managed to return the bikes on time! wahahax~
oh yar..
YUE AN DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO RIDE A BIKE.
mann mann mann..
and i had to ride a double bike with her.
but its quite fun bahs..
heehee.
only thing is she keeps screaming..
wahahax~
then i will lol and the bike will wobble and she will scream
somemore...
hee`x..
so lame.
then we actualli wanted to go to the beach to play..
BUT.
its was SOOOOOO polluted.
yeck-
so we ended up in the swimming pool.
yes..
the SWIMMING POOL..
mann.
we had our clothes on too..
but don't have life guard..
so nvm lah..hee`x.
the barbeque ws quite short lahs because we didn't really have time to eat.
then i went home with theresa by the MRT and reached home at about 10++..
wahahax.
and goodness gracious me..
my mum did NOT scold me!!! wahahasx.
so glad...
den i watched more vcds...
Lover's in Paris!!
and den Thats so Raven on disney channel..
then...
the most thrilling of all..
THE JAPANESE GHOST STORY on channel 8.
but i found out their story line all almost the same de lo.
and their actress all act until very lame..
hahahs.
but still abit scary lahs.
the makeup was alright.
BUT.
they ALWAYS appear all of a sudden..
thats why very kong bu..
heehee.
oh yeah..
tml is going to be the start of a whole new week!!
bringing new joys and news!!
lets hope amanda feels better ..
heehee.
i had this feeling tt she was homesick the whole day ytd.
wahaHaax.
and me and my korean language?
its filling up the WHOLE exercise book.
so i suppose i should get a new one now.
hahahs.
i still cannot capture the concept of re-structuring sentences
in such a way as subject-object-verb ..
weird?
heehee.
i am still trying to absorb it.
heehee`x.
any way..
i am gonna continue watching my vcds now..
the weather is hot so everyone drink loads of water!!!
heehee.

wOOOohOOO~
tell me.
if theres anything better than THE HOLIDAYS~
TELLME~
come on!
telll mee!!
weeeeeHHHHAAAAA~~~
i am GoNNA PLAY PLAY PLAY~
play it all out!!
walaaS~
its the JUNE HOLS!
did you see it right?
JUNE HOLIDAYS
its cool alright...
its too cool.
WAHAHAHSx.
i got a cruise holiday coming right up..
amanda's chalet to attend tml..
debbie's birthday to celebrate with..
and TWO class outings!!!!
whats more..
theres a KOREAN movie
coming up..
My Boyfriend is type- B
remember to catch it!
its just starting only..
who knows what is going to happen!?
haHahahs..

now is the end of the exams lerh!!
no more exams means alot of play time for me~~
and i will be able to play alot of vcds...
hahahs.
so saddening sia.
i still dont understand the ending of lovers in paris..
i watch the ending four times lerhs..
but i still dont get it..
hahahs.
anyway..
today we get back alot of papers...
not say alot lahs but still a handful..
amanda verii sad over her maths..
yue an oso...
i think clarice oso bahs..
but i dunno why..
hahahs.
i still verii happy.
full of life..
but a little bit tired bahs.
hahahs.
i aired my legs the whole day today.
today morning heavy rain lo..
then i debbie and theresa all wet until siao.
hahahs~*
verii siao bahs..
then its like i already looking forward to the june holidays..
i wanna go and play until siao!!
i dun wanna study for a verii long time.
i just wanna live life to the fullest~
today i going to poke somemore earholes bahs.
i think one will do...
but then i thinking of poking my tongue..
but then debbie the reaction very strong..
she say if i poke then no nit talk to her..
and also considering the fact that it is verii expensive..
and i will not be able to eat for three whole days..
i should say no..
ahhahs.
wait till i think i should be on a diet..
then that will be the most desperate measure to take bahs.
hahahs.
any way...
i like very tired le..
hahahs.
i need more sleep..
yet..
i still wanna play away half of my life..
hahahs.
i passed most of my subjects bahs..
and i seriously hope i do well for my science..
hahahs.
nothing much le bahs..
so sad my house downstairs de pasar malam bo ler..
if not i can go there eat nonsense.
hahahs.
so nice lo the food there..
hahahs.
and then so manii things to eat there..
so manii things to buy..
hahhas.
nvm bahs.
i look forward to the june holidays!!!
and our class outing!!
maybe we going to wild wild wet or sentosa.
then on debbie's birthday we going sentosa oso.
hahaahs.
wonder if mummy allow.
i think she would..
heeheez-
i taking up korean now..
so easy lo...
even though one word may have loads of meanings.
hahahs.
i think i wil be able to cope..
so farn to learn~
ahhhhhhh.~
hao bahs..
i go liaos.

hai yo...
i suddenly realised i am tooooo addicted:
to my tv.
hahahs.
i love my vcds~~
i watched the whole series
of lovers in paris for about two times lerr..
ahahahs~
i lovve it too much!!!!
hahahs.
i wanna migrate to korea.
AFTER learning how to speak their language.
hahahs.
okay.
i go and sleep.
hahahs.

everyday seems to be passing so fast..
ahahahs-
mid-year exams are here.
they are all killer papers.
hahahs.
i am getting through everyday watching tv.
my favourite korean drama.
i am addicted to it.
hahah.
i am trying verii hard to save money.
looking at life at a different perspective.
trying to think before i speak.
getting the hang of how i person will feel.
i am just trying to change myself now.
hoping it will lead to a better tomorrow.
ahahas.
doing some upgrading to my brain.
but doing alot of degrading to my body.
i have been sleeping late these few days.
watching vcds with my mum...
what else can i do mann..
hahahs.
i seriously want to throw away my past.
i didn't know my life was so interesting.
and i will make sure it will be even more.
hahah.
i will try my best!!!
jia yoU!
anyway..
i really want to go for band!
hahahs.
i don't know if i miss the aircon, or the chair or my trombone or simply:
my seniors.
ahhahas.
maybe lahs-
i am looking forward to my cruise holiday.
the trombone outing ;
and loads of outings with my friends.
or just simply: the june holidays.
hahahs.
i feel i am so naggy these days.
hahahs.
lets see...
maybe its time to seriously concentrate on my tv show.
hahahas.
take care my friends.


đеѕ амоϋřеϋx ά рαřіѕ ~
ki-joo <3 tae-young

Thank you for thinking of me when you felt alone.
Thank you for patting my head when you knew i was sick.
Thank you for cheering me up when i was down.
Thank you for trusting me so much before.
But i suppose...
its time for me to give you up..
How is it bearable to help the one you love
woo your very own best friend without getting hurt?
I do not wish to get hurt,
nor reject the help you asked from me..
Therefore i have decided to give up..
My heart is aching.
Maybe its just tired of waiting..
Now i can be free from the jealousy caused by you.
I am not disturbed.
Get lost.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.