Gary and I seem to be closer than ever. It's amazing how solving problems bring people together. (Take note: Solving) If it was just a problem, left unsolved, I seriously doubt people would even come close to becoming closer at all. Anyohhow, I feel loved. And I've learnt to love unconditionally. (:

Christopher asked me, why Gary. Then I said he was Special.
Then Christopher asked, How special? Additional egg? So I asked, what additional egg?
Christopher said, In Indo restaurants, fried rice is fried rice. Fried rice special is just an additional egg. So Gary is special because he got an additional egg? x)

ROFL


Ah Zhuang turned 18 today! :D Though it wasn't a BIG kinda thing. But if I summarize what we did, it was quite a handful! We had a shoe-like-cake-with-a-candle, presents (which included a candlelight-gonnabe-dinner, a gym-instructor shirt and marshmallows-in-a-box), photos, tap-o-war, blowfish, subway, hungry jack, handmade noodles, herbal tea egg(s), and lots of fun. Happy Birthday Again Ah Zhuang! :D

Floflo cried today. She was vulnerable. And I honestly had to agree with her, even when she told us about her problems, I was helpless. But not knowing made me even more helpless. While she was tear-ing, I only felt like the only consolation I could offer her was a pat on the back, some tissue, and the want to know more about how she has been going through her painful times, alone. I'm sorry too Flo. I want to be there for you.

For now, I need to find that motivation to strive again. Yeah, Ruth was right. I wasn't some superwoman. I need to find time to breathe and not collapse. (: No more workaholi-sm.

It is slipping from my fingers all too fast. My heart stings.
Sometimes I find reasons to take my mind off it.
Sometimes I find myself with time to think and I hurt again.
I need to think harder. But the harder I do, the more it hurts too.

I want it all to go away some how. Most importantly, I want that feeling to end.

I just realized my posts were getting really, angry. So I decided to post something, on a lighter note. (:

4th April 2009, Saturday

The weather was awesome. The sun scorched real bad at first, but the light showers really made it all better.


Lovely Ruth turned 18! (Happy Birthday Rooth!) She looked really busy with the emceeing for bAoc. But I think Flo, Ah zhuang and I had fun trying to surprise her. I'm always here for you Rooth. (;


The people who enthusiastically answered our calls are much appreciated.

Meeting Estilo Pop for the first time was, queer. Jerry was, distracted. Evon was, distracted. Anyhow, Serena looks jovial enough. And I saw my BLAW rep. Together with a couple of volunteers from the spring cleaning event. I also saw Elyn from Envoys. bAoc should go fine for me, with them. (:

Delphine made me look forward to Day 3 of bAoc. I think she's going to rock the stage with her group.

The white linen shirt Gary bought for his Dad looks good. It's from Hush Puppies. Shopping with Gary is simply straightforward. I can keep giving ideas on what to get. But whatever catches his eyes first, will never escape those eyes again. (HOHO) I think he made the right choice any oh how. (:

Dinner at Shokudo with Gary was fulfilling. The finely pan fried Unagi Omelette. The tray of assorted sushi. The Hot Green Tea. The piping hot skewed scallops and prawns. The satisfying Pork Katsu Curry Rice. The attractive dinner companion.

Gary looked (very) Hot today. (: I couldn't convince myself he was who I saw. Whatever the case, I was super wary of everybody around us. They kept staring, both Male and Female. They stared so much, I got scared.

I told Pohyih some things I never thought I would. I think I suck at consolation. But I took the courage to be really honest. I hope he feels fine soon. He's a great friend. And I know many people think that way too.

Now? I'm off to sleep. I actually watched The Ring 2 with my eyes wide open just now. I'm also too lazy to wait for Jesper's soccer match to be over.
Goodnight World.


It takes more than passion to do something. Everyone can have a passion for something. But its taking the initiative to pursue that passion, before you can ever fulfill a dream.

I'm rather direct when it comes to people.

I form first impressions in 20 seconds, and I alter the impressions after only if I bother to. If I like the person. I smile, and I continue to communicate with that person. If I don't like the person. I don't smile, and I won't even bother to look.

I become distraught when the impression takes a complete turn from the first. It usually happens, when I discover a certain trait I dislike, or a personality disorder I cannot accept. Then I make a decision whether to continue communication with that person. If I say yes, then I will. If I say no, then I completely ignore (or give the cold shoulder to) that person.

I've realised, from over close to 18 years of my life, the particular traits I find irksome.
I cannot stand people who don't have a mind of their own. I think their life bores me.
I cannot stand people who take credit for the work of others. I think they are hypocritical and fake.
I cannot stand people who discredits a person for no substantial reasons. I think they're unreasonable.
I cannot stand people who put down others without thought. I think they worthless.
..
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I won't continue.

Its pretty much subjective. But I realize I display my emotions quite bluntly. I'm not really concerned on how the world perceives me from the way I treat the humans around me.

Do not, (re emphasis: DO NOT), brush my thoughts off with a simple statement like, 'I think you think too much.'

Yes, I think I think a lot. In fact, I do. But, its like some utter humiliation when someone does that. I'll prolly snap you into a billion trillion pieces and cast you into the bermuda triangle to cease your existence. HAH.


ok. Here's what caught my attention halfway through the night.
A random forwarded email from Pow in Mandarin.
and here's what really made me Roll On the Floor Laughing.

12、题目：况且

小朋友写：一列火车经过，况且况且况且况且况且况

老师批语：我死了算了。

The email had 12 of such nonsensical sentences. ROFL. If you want it, you could spam pow to send it to you. :D

SYF was awesome. and I know My Juniors did Great. (:

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.