two girls.
one guy.
a love triangle.
what more can you conclude?
;)
you cannot conclude anything.
if you did conclude something.
its just nonsense.

let me conclude it:
the guy ' s a TOTAL FREAK.
the first girl 's DUMB.
and the second girl 's STUPID.

okay.
elaboration.

THE GUY is an absolute airhead.
why?
if he is unable to give happiness to others ;
why bother to give hope?
and.
he is not a loyal one.
positively not one who stays true to one.
an undecisive person he is.
what a freak.
a POTATO HEAD i must say.

THE FIRST GIRL is DUMB.
why?
because she listens to lies he tells.
she willingly waits ;
while the GUY tells the same lies to :
THE SECOND GIRL.

THE SECOND GIRL is STUPID.
why?
because she KNOWS he likes HER.
yet ;
she believes his lies and
willingly waits.

so whats the ending for this very stupid story?
everyone gets hurt.

THE GUY don't know whom to choose.
THE FIRST GIRL feels a little impatient waiting for an answer.
when she gets to know he likes THE SECOND GIRL.
then she gets jealous and upset.
THE SECOND GIRL begins to feel like a third party.
she begins to turn upset.
she take glimpses of him but is unable to tell anyone how she feels.
THE FIRST GIRL thinks she is the cause of THE SECOND GIRL's sadness.
she thinks that she should step back and allow them to go together.
THE SECOND GIRL cannot stand it anymore and then steps out of this triangle.
THE FIRST GIRL stepped back.
so.
the ending?
LOL.
everyone can know.
THE GUY's left alone.
THE FIRST and SECOND GIRLs are left hurt.


honestly.
when i see this kinda stories published in books.
i feel like a total ass reading it.
i don't believe i CANNOT do anything.
so i thought.
maybe i should type it out.
and maybe some people might understand my view.
LOL.
i do not mean any harm.
its up to you to look at this kinda stories.
hahahs.
but seriously.
i bet i am going to look at the contents of the books i buy.
never judge a book by its cover.
LOL.
it seems true eh?
heheh.
i learnt my lesson.
the hard way.
still.
i wonder why these love triangles mostly involve :
A GUY and 2 GIRLS.
get real.
there are vice-versa cases too.
hahahs.

LOL.
nites.
enjoy the hols!
XD

YEAH!-
woohoo!
hahahs.
LOL.
=D
i've made reservations to New Park Hotel's :
Hai Xiang Restaurant
for buffet!
woohoo!!
oh yes!
hahahs.
would anyone just tell me how happy i am now?
hahahs.
i am absolutely, positively, delightfully delighted!
wahahahs.
my cousin is giving me a treat as a birthday present lahs.
oh mann.
i can't wait.
hahahs.
i am soooooo happy.
BUFFET.
i haven't had one for years.
not really years.
but MONTHS.
hahahs.
its such a joyous event.
lol.
i wanted to try the chocolate buffet arthur was talking about at the Fullerton.
but ....
ITS ONLY AVAILABLE ON FRIDAY AND SATURDAY.
arghhhhhh-
nvm.
LOL.
who cares?
i still get to eat at a buffet in the end!
hahahs.
oh yeah.
oh yeah.
=))

we have band on tuesday.
for 5 hours okay.
i DON'T feel like going.
who bothers in fact?
okay.
Yue An does.
hahahs.
;)
anyway.
i do hope i can survive!
LOL.

anyone interested in going out tml for lunch?
hahahs.
i think staying at home will bore me out.
so i found an excuse to creep out of the house.
MY LOST CLOG SHOES.
lol.
its lame enough.
and my earpiece.
and my BOOKLIST.
okay.
i totally forgot what the hell is combined humans.
is it history and geography?
literature and civics and moral?
social studies and literature?
WHAT!?
arghhhhhhhhh-
oh yes.
and my cousin took up accounting kaes!
so cool !!
i want to take this up too!
but our school don't teach it.
i won't even know this course exists until my cousin told me.
hahahs.
LOL.
mann.
nvm.
in the end.
i still needa get my book and do some ummm...
calculations.
LOL.
so i hope that i can get my book back!
=) !

TO: THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD.

ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS!
SMILE!!
ITS TIME TO PLAY!
=))

ciaos`

슬프지만 괜찮은 척했어요.
나는 당신를 사랑해요.

its the holidays already.
and yesterday was our last day at 2E.
it was quite short really ;
or maybe we were just too happy.
time actually passed so fast.
we were taking so many photos.
playing games played by small kids.
crapping like crazy.
tears formed sometimes.
the weird thing is.
they cry more when they hug someone else.
so my three pax of tissues were put to good use.
=)
there was rain after school.
but everyone carried on playing cards.
yanting and i 'vandalised' the school noticeboard.
LOL.
hey.
I MAKE THIS CLEAR AND CLEARER :
PEH TINGTING.
I LOVE YUEAN.
SHE IS MY 'opposite' TWIN.
LOL.
anyway.
lets go back and see it another day yar?!
hahahs.
then we went to sharmaine's house.
its so cool!
so big! LOL.
there was an Xbox.
woohoo!
we played poker cards.
keqin and yanting was like so pro at it.
sam played the Xbox.
theresa, amanda, wanxin and pinhui were playing uno.
hahahs.
sharmaine was so pro at shuffling cards too!!!
WOOHOO!
i wanna learn..
LOL.
oh yes.
and i left my clogs, booklist and earpiece on the bus.
OH MANN.
i'm so DEAD.
hai ya.
but it was enjoyable.
really.
heheh.
i look forward to the class outing!
we are going to watch HARRY POTTER and the GOBLET OF FIRE.
he looks a little plump already.
and his hair is longer.
so i wonder if the movie is gonna turn out nice.
besides,
Harry was supposed to fall in love with ChoChang.
hai yo.
so complicating.
i think i should read up on the book all over again.
heheh.
i wonder what i'll do during the hols.
other than band.
there is nothing more that can bring me out of the house.
anyway.
i guess.
its gonna be another two months before we all start afresh again.
lets relax people!
go PLAY!
WOOHOO!
=D

i am short tempered.
i am irritable.
i am so not myself these few days.
i get totally err.
irritating.
i wonder why.
i can't stop myself from being mean to people.
i even resorted to being sarcastic.
i am just so ....
mad at myself.
i think offended countless people.
giving them those horrid eyes.
and those hurting words.
i know what the hell i am doing.
but i just don't want to stop.
i'm sorry yue an.
i'm terribly sorry.
i'm horribly sorry.
i am truly sorry.
i shouldn't vent it on you.
i shouldn't be so mean to you.
i shouldn't put you down with those words.
i am sorry.
really i am.
you did real great riding the double bike.
you were wonderful riding the single bike.
you are really a good defender.
at least.
aloysius is a guy afterall.
so we girls cannot dream of winning guys physically.
but i support you all the way kaes?
don't give up.
persue your happiness with full force.
don't be timid.
i'll be here for you !!!!
=')
i also terribly sorry to those i offended.
i am sorry.
really i am.
i hope i can make up to you guys.
sorry.

its the last three days with my favourite class!
and people!
i will make sure i cherish these times kaes?
i think i wasted 2 days being horrid.
and i think i should begin to be good.
LOL.
those memories at pasir ris shall not be forgotten!
or should i say.
pasir ris shall not be forgotten.
it brings back both good and old memories.
with ALL of you guys!
how i wish we would never part.
2 effusion rocks.
we rock the world.
i bet no other class could beat ours.
WE RULE.
lol.
its fun isn't it?
to actually have an outing.
then play until we go crazy.
heheh.
bend rules people!
don't obey them!
they are meant to be broken!
anyway, our class is infamous for breaking rules all the time.
hahahs.
good times we shared are always kept in my heart.
i hope its in yours too.
lets just go crazy.
forget those cuts and scratches and aches and pain.
lets just play to our heart's content.
don't be mushy and talk about treasuring and cherishing.
put those words into action NOW!
lol.
lets do it together.
together forever.
2 EFFUSION `O5
WE ROCK.
XD

getting to love someone isn't an easy task for me.
yet.
i willingly get hurt by those jealous and cold moments.
i don't know how to counter those jealousy attacks i get everyday.
its just my wishful part of thinking.
i know it.
you like someone.
i know it.
but i still can't help falling deeper.
it hurts having to say things that contradict how i feel.
yet i just say it.
sometimes it hurts so much.
i feel like screaming.
i feeling like pouring it out.
but to whom can i lash out these thoughts?
i keep these nonsense to myself.
therefore i guess,
i brought such misery to myself.
your image just drifts in my mind.
its there.
and i can't take it off.
whats worse.
i KNOW who you like.
is this enough, or is there more to come?
i think i shouldstop all these foolish thoughts and enjoy my last days with my favourite class.
but you just corrode my thoughts.
with sounds of your words.
it bothers me loads.
and theres nothing i can do.
how i wish i could be alone.
to sort out ho w i feel.
i am jealous.
i am so jealous.
i am very jealous.
someone please stop me.
i can't help but fall deeper.
='(

TOGETHER FOREVER.
NEVER APART.
2 EFFUSIONISTS FOREVER ;
AT HEART.
<3

its a week more to the hols.
everyone's a little excited.
yet i feel a little disheartened.
i do not wish to leave this class just yet.
but maybe.
its just time to let go i suppose.
hahahs.
lets go play people!
cycle in pasir ris on monday!
yeah!
exercise is good!
whats more ;
its the whole class doing it all together!
great workout i guess!
hahahs.
nice!
=))

band today was a little crazy.
i couldn't focus ;
i kept playing the wrong note.
i even felt dizzy when i played a whole series of low notes.
not enough oxygen.
=S
i even accidentally dropped liya's bottle into the saliva pail.
whats worse.
the bottle landed head first.
and she didn't dare to use it again.
oh mann.
LOL
i am a little mad.
i just couldn't get what mr masree was saying.
his words don't seem to travel to my ears.
and i always start at the wrong place.
who cares anyway!?
lol.
its over.

falling in and out of love
seem so wondrous ;
yet tiring.

its the start of school tomorrow.
which means the end of the marking days.
which means the start of anxiety.
and marks the end of our sec 2 life.
LOL.
it means alot of things yeah?!
hahahs.
its not cool.
not really.
i don't want it to end.
i don't mind going through 100 more exams.
or even more.
i just wanna stay put.
i don't want to start all over again.
its so tiring.
i just want to live like it is now.
no conflicts.
just me you and everyone else.
even those who just form the background looks like candy.
i just want the present to stay put.
and i just want to rest.
close my eyes knowing everything is beside me.
just like i knew it would be.
nvm.
instead.
why not just live with the fact that everything that has a start has an end.
so just let it end.
LOL.
crazy.
i am contradicting myself in this entry.
anyway.
i can't be bothered already.
i just need to find a new goal in life.
thats all.
yepp.
thats all.
i hope i can of course.
=))
loads of luck people!

YES.
its over.
everyones' talking about it.
its no hush-hush issue.
its the end of the exams!
everyone is screaming!!!!
LOL.
okay.
no one is screaming.
hahahs.
anyway.
well.
i guess i just gotta play!!
thats the only thing i can do at least.
maybe i should just keep those little memories at the back of my mind now.
ahahahs.
go people!
lets play!
but waiting for the results can be somewhat heart wrenching.
i can't wait.
but yet, i think i would not be able to take it all at once.
it may deliver a big blow.
but how i wish it would all be over within a day.
everything comes and everything goes.
at least i will feel better right?
hahahs.
i think i should pay attention to my health already.
i think i am going to come down with a fever one of these days.
hahahs.
i bought LOADS of stickers again!!!
hahahs.
from those roadside stalls which sells cheapskate stuff.
well.
i love those cute little things they sell.
and i don't mind buying it.
heheh.
i indulge myself in these little rewards i use to please myself.
i can't believe i am so childish okay.
but i don't mind.
PEOPLE.
GO OUT ON THE 24th OCTOBER!
its a HOLIDAY!
hahahs.
lets go crazy.
go do somethings we love doing.
go places we love to hangout at.
LOL.
[ i am asking only certain people. ;) you know who you are! XD]
right.
so...
yepp yepp.
its done!
bye people.
enjoy the 3 day weekend!
its going to be short.
real short.
ciaos`

the exams are almost over.
or for me ;
its all over already.
who bothers about the home cons paper?
LOL.
today's maths paper was a total mess.
even though i found it simpler than the previous tests.
but!
i couldn't manage to complete the last qns.
thanks to those typo errors mr raffi typed out.
a total wastage of time.
haiiiiiiiiiiii yeerrrrrrrr...
i feel like strangling him.
8 marks down the drain.
JUST LIKE THAT.
don't you feel angry!?
okay.
you won't.
i would.
hehehs.
=D
well i guess thats all for the exam week bahs.
no more screwed up eyebrows ;
no more forehead wrinkles ;
no more sleepless nights.
everything is OVER.
at least for now.

i wonder ;
what the hell is wrong with me.
i can't help but stare at the opposite class.
hoping to catch a glimspe.
but i tell myself over and over again.
its never going to come back.
i can't seem to smile much these days.
nothing seems worthwhile.
maybe you are right theresa.
i only know how to treasure the past.
what more can i do?
i can't help but shed tears of sorrow.
memories once had but lost.
maybe its just some sort of retribution.
something i have done in the past.
but i can't believe i am letting myself be hurt by these things i can control.
i can. but i just won't.
call me dumb.
i can't help it.
i see them.
and i wonder.
why can't i just be a little more understanding previously.
i don't regret.
but i don't understand.
maybe this is just an excuse to make me feel better.
believing in the existance of fate means alot to me.
and everything i see that can revoke the past ;
could mean something.
i believe its not good.
therefore i conclude it a bad omen.
i wish to smile like before.
i wish i could.
but there seems to be nothing worth living for other than my sister and my family.
i know i need more than them.
but i can't find anyone else.
no one shines in my eyes.
my world suddenly turns dull.
nothing turns me on.
i seem to have shut myself out of this pleasant world i once believed in.
a world filled with so called tulips.
even if it is true.
i guess the flowers don't bloom.
its winter in temperate countries.
and now.
i get it.
how i wish i could have a break.
a break from everything.
be myself.
and for once,
do everything i wish to do.
find someone that puts a smile on my face.
someone who brightens my day.
someone who lights up my life.
just someone who shines in my eyes.
can anyone?
just anyone would do.
mann.
i feel like i am crashing on this world.
='(

oh yes!
i finished watching Full House already!
and it was soooo good.
LOL.
i wanna migrate!!!!
can anyone just fufil this wish of mine?!
hahahs.
its history today.
and i cannot understand what were the weaknesses of the rendel constituition.
oh mann.
i was freaking out when i saw how much yanting wrote for a 7 mark question.
whats more.
i almost fell asleep when i stared at agnes walk up and down for 5 minutes.
crazy yeah!!
ahahas.
i have art tomorrow!!!
and i haven't done any research yet!!
hahahhs.
i am MAD.
i cannot be bothered with art.
LOL.
there is still geography.
so..
yeah!
hahahs.
go people!
its gonna end soon!
LOL.
OH YES.

theres nothing much i can do for you.
so i won't mind you venting it on me when you turn blue.
okaes?!
=))

its the exams!!!
LOL.
go crazyyy-
hahahs.
not really.
i am a little..
errrrrs...
i don't know?
ahahahs.
anyway.
everyone is working seriously hard.
and i have nothing better to do than to work hard too!
LOL.
but not as hard as others.
i am still quite relaxed yar.
hahahs.
i only spend 1 hour a day studying for the exams.
hahahs.
and i spend the rest of my time in front of the tv or eating.
LOL.
jealous?
hahahs.
i don't get it.
what is so intensive about the eoy's?
it doesn't really make sense lahs.
because if i can be so relaxed,
i am sure everyone else can!
ahahahs.
LOL.
but i really wanna condemn that IVF (intro-vitro fertilisation) question.
hahahs.
it made me think of it for so long,
and then i changed my answer.
ARGHHHH.
i hate it.
why must they ALWAYS test me on something that i will live with for the rest of my life anyway?
can one person who went through IVF please tell me they allowed a zygote to be placed in their UTERUS?!
AHHHHHHHHH!!
one mark.!
ONE PATHETIC PRECIOUS MARK.
okay.
its horrid.
blehhhhhhhhhhh-
i'm fuming.
and the english composition was even more horrid.
i wrote the most BORING composition in my entire life.
believe it or not.
the first sentence of my composition is :
"My family consistes of my father, my mother, my older brother, my younger sister and me."
TELL ME.
ANYONE.
JUST TELL ME.
who would ever write this kinda compos in secondary life huh!!!?
arghhhh.
i feel so BLAHHHHHHH-
hahahs.
but come to think of it.
i think it is funny.
LOL.
hahahhs.
can't believe i am laughing at myself.
XD
monday is maths paper 1.
and guess what?
i am going shopping tomorrow.
hahahs.
crazy people do crazy things.
so i guess i am simply crazy.
i can't seem to fall asleep during the exams these days.
arthur is like always making some kinda noise that do not allow me to shut my eyes in peace AT ALL.
its not irritating. but its DISTURBING.
and i can't help but giggle at those noises he create.
come to think of it.
its really funny.
and daring of those guys.
they absolutely outta their minds.
they actually play during the exams.
LOL.
hahahs.
our class.
2 effusion.
i wonder how my class would be like without everyone next year.
hahahs.
i can wait.
but i want to be surprised.
i really wanna know.
hahahs.
but i guess i still can wait.
hahahs.
XD
saying it is as good as not saying anything at all.
LOL.
anyway..
there is still five days till we are free!
so work hard people!
JIAYOUUS!
GO GO!
hahahs.
and rmb ppl. (especially to certain ppl)
i am always here for you.
LOL.
=D

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.