today was hectic.
work loads up to my neck, and responsibilities weighing down on me.
it felt worse since my brain was burning and my head was splitting up.
i tried to do some work on the MRT as usual,
but i chanced upon the affinity to experience a ride with 2 most interestingly distracting ladies.
the first was a Vietnamese.
initially, she just sat there demure, and quiet.
but she was a nightmare when she picked up the phone.
her shrill voice was utterly disturbing.
and it was made worse when she amplified it to me by placing her hand over her mouth.
-.-
so she kind of defeated the purpose of trying to quieten down with her kind intention of reducing noise traveling way out.
RAH.
and Vietnamese seriously sounds Vietnamese.

the second queer lady was yet another demure and quiet albino.
okay, this time round, she was really quiet.
she made no noise. not a sound.
i couldn't even hear her breathing.
BUT!
her delicate white hands kept shaking and shaking and shaking and shaking and shaking and shaking non stop.
and her eyes were fixed on my ms word document.
the best part?
my laptop's brightness was pretty low,
so it reflected that sharp glow from her blue pupils.
woah, and that seriously freaked me out.
in the end,
i felt so relieved that i dropped off at outram park.
end of a torturous train ride.
haha.

rushing towards the post office took a great toll on me too.
squeezing through the crowd at clementi central when you're pressed for time is a chore.
and i got really irritated at some point of time.
there's always this thing about walking behind people of a larger human form than yourself. (no offense but..)
they stroll.
and the best part is, they cannot detect anything behind them because their vision scope is blocked by themselves.
ROAR.
serious!
and i have to do the bend it like beckham thing,
make a huge round about them,
before rushing off again.
this equals to extra work done.
extra joules used up.

lol. oh wells.
enough of me ranting.


from the view of an outsider.
i see how fragile human relationships can be.
it breaks without warning.
every word means a tonne.
i just wonder,
how these 2 humans recover so quickly.
and fall back into the trap they just got out of.
its amazing how it works.
and it probably goes to show how much they used to cherish each other.
maybe this is reality.
and what i thought it should be was non-existent.
the feeling of having the world with someone in your arms disappear the moment emotions are no longer attached.
memories once held so dear vanishes.
and yeah, forever.
(that's one favorite word use to deceive right? since it doesn't exist.)
it is no wonder, why faith seldom build up over time.
conflicts make it worse.
jealousy degrades it.
hatred ends it.


maybe, just maybe.
i'll stop behaving like an immature brat.
and just grow up and face facts.
i'll probably consider solving problems upfront too.
just like how it used to be.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.