today was. queer; in a sense.
i encountered a lot of setbacks today.
the worst part?
i wasn't able to anticipate them and take precautionary measures to ward myself from any sort of emotional trauma.
so, yeah.
i almost fell into a state of contemporary depression.

first was my macroeconomics test.
i think the change of answers after i woke up from my lil' sleeping break was the most retarded decision i made.
so i guess, i shouldn't blame myself for being such a smart aleck right,
i mean, the objective was still to be smart.
but i lost 16 marks from that.
gosh. how smart.

then was the lil' shopping trip.
i was really delighted to be spending time with floflo, zy and ruth!
but i was kind of fed up with myself;
indecisive; foolish; and so confused.
i gave up shopping for someone else.
and when i finally decided to look for things i really like,
i was already in no mood to shop.
hah.

later was the band practice.
basically, i went back with that burning desire to invite NCWO to perform for the YMCA- YFC charity event MPS would be organizing.
but apparently,
they're up to their necks for the entire year.
which also means, they are unable to raise funds for my event.
gosh. how great.
then floflo asked me, what happens if everything doesn't go through.
well- i think i gave a really optimistic answer.
and i do know that nothing of that would happen; cause i'll dig my guts out to prevent that from happening.
however, it started to hit me.
i started to think of the worst.
seriously, it was more like, letting my imagination run wild.
so, it was my own fault that i experienced such a negative emotion.

the other 3 events would be better left unsaid.
thank you so much zhuangying! (:
for calling back.
felt so comforted.

the holidays have officially started for me!
best of luck to TB21 for blaw!
and of course truckloads of luck to Gary ! (:

just to mention.
our group's proposal has been accepted by YMCA- Citibank and has been given permission to carry out and organize a charity event to help raise funds for a NPO (non- profit organization), which, in our case, would be High Point!
we would be organizing a Charity Bazaar, a basketball tournament, a performance, a fun fair, and we would be selling pretty Calendars for 2009 done by the tsunami victims in Indonesia, Aceh, proudly obtained by ruth's papa!
I would be setting up a blog and posting details there.
of course, my blog would be an outlet for advertisement too.
do leave a mail if you do express interest in helping out or participating in any of the above mentioned events. (:

alright;
now i'm off to cope with the overflowing emotions.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.