i've been really busy lately,
especially with the SYF Central Judging around the corner and the mid-year exams approaching in a month to come.
honestly,
the previous week was tedious.
band. school. home.
it was a non-stop cycle that drains your energy and sucks your blood.
lols.
[:
its amazing how i can feel like this now.
after so many attempts of giving up on everything at hand.
i feel tired. sometimes too tired.
tired of everything.
even tired of sleeping.
tired of eating.
tired of life.


today was supposed to be the last sectional with Mr Pisit.
SUPPOSED to be.
yet, we are still confident we'll see him soon again.
and true enough- hes dropping by next saturday for the music exchange.
the practice today was not exactly productive.
because he took the whole session to reinforce certain concepts on dynamics, chords and rhythm.
then when we were called in for the last session of combined practice for the week,
we over-performed.
right.
i guess the word OVER is accurate enought to execute my message.
i know mr richard png expects more.
much much more.
i know mr pisit is disappointed.
not really. but quite.
and i know.
we can do better.
=)
so given my positive attitude towards the faces mr png has thrown at us during the rehearsal,
the kind of disappointment mr pisit displayed on his face despite denying it,
and the negative feedback i got from mr lum and the rest of the band.
i couldnt help but let disappointment overwhelm me.
im sorry for displaying my wrath.
sorry yuean.
-
honestly.
i can't let myself get agitated with any sort of extreme emotion right now.
i am like-
at the climax already.
one more step and i'm off the cliff.
=|


hahhhhhhhh..
so what if i fall of the cliff i dreamt of.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.