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Scribbling [a] Runaway History


Like Shakespeare in Love


Hello (:

I'm Sylvia. I enjoy the company of good friends and food.
I'm currently,
serving as a chair at Teck Ghee Youth Executive Committee;
chasing dreams at Molehill;
and doing Marketing & Public Relations at Levitate Studios.

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Saturday, 12 June 2010
Failed for Good
Feeling tortured. Its like how you know its crumbling and all you can do is watch it become worse. Its all within - and there's no way I can head towards. I can't stand still. I keep moving on the spot. And I'm close to exhaustion.

Christopher's Chaos Theory struck me. Sometimes it just keeps getting worse.

And at this moment, I feel alone again. I'm always alone I guess. Its just how I made myself believe that I'm not.
I succeeded in many instances. But today I failed.

Its a terrible pain. You lose control of everything you once held on to. You know you have to take steps beyond the shallow thoughts to achieve that goal. But sheer idiocy and impulsiveness just leads to rash words and more hurt.

It feels bad to have someone close by and not be able to say anything. Feels worse to be rejected even when you know you won't. Feels terrible when its never gonna work out.

Raindrops keep falling on my head. Hide the tears that flow deep within.
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