today is one day after the band dinner.
it was fabulous.
everyone was so into it.
except me.
i was indulging in food i guess.
i got to drink 2 bowls of soup!
wahahas.
whatever the case, it was alright.
x))

i am someone,
whose heart rules her head.
NOT vice versa.
so there are some times when i can never explain why i do the things i do.
practically absurd.
and even if i do come with an explanation.
its totally nonsense.
well.
i suppose this can explain why i feel that i should be starting to dislike someone from this day on.
it is beyond my intergrity to tell everyone who comes across this blog who it is.
whatever the case, and no matter who you are, i will NOT tell you WHO.
so. i will refer to this particular person as : a. .
even if i feel that i should not be doing this.
i am doing it.
because.
because of a. ,
i have considered keeping my blog completely confidential and out of reach.
and.
i have also considered using voodoo dolls to stab her.
so.
i guess this is the most complete and harmless way to talk about her.
and i dont suppose to tell anyone about it in detail.
so why not share with everyone why i have decided to dislike this particular human in this world.
well.
i shall not elaborate on the history of me and a. .
our relationship with each other is no different from friends that know each other not so well.
so.
ever since interaction started between us.
i have felt nothing until recently.
maybe i am just a little too sensitive.
but the words a. use on me are filled with sacarsm and a tinge of boastfulness.
a. deprives me of any reason to survive in this world.
this particular person seems to be able to hit me on my weakest points.
not only that.
being able to make me feel inferior and queasy is no easy feat.
and it seems to be so easy for a. .
and.
for me.
i feel horrible.
and if i continue to let myself be on good terms with this human.
my life will be made a living hell.
so.
i think it is a must to do what i must.
this time round.
my head wins over my heart.
i don't know how.
but it just did.
and i suppose.
my life is going to change.
the impossible just happened.
i don't know what to expect.
and i guess i'll live with it.
:
well.
everyone makes christmas wishes right?
i used to be greedy when i was younger.
i always made 3.
but this year.
i am going to make one.
just one.
and i hope it comes true.
yeah?
hahahs.
and hope everyone of all of your wishes come true too people!
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A GREAT NEW YEAR !
TO EVERYONE OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE!
XD

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.