i am short tempered.
i am irritable.
i am so not myself these few days.
i get totally err.
irritating.
i wonder why.
i can't stop myself from being mean to people.
i even resorted to being sarcastic.
i am just so ....
mad at myself.
i think offended countless people.
giving them those horrid eyes.
and those hurting words.
i know what the hell i am doing.
but i just don't want to stop.
i'm sorry yue an.
i'm terribly sorry.
i'm horribly sorry.
i am truly sorry.
i shouldn't vent it on you.
i shouldn't be so mean to you.
i shouldn't put you down with those words.
i am sorry.
really i am.
you did real great riding the double bike.
you were wonderful riding the single bike.
you are really a good defender.
at least.
aloysius is a guy afterall.
so we girls cannot dream of winning guys physically.
but i support you all the way kaes?
don't give up.
persue your happiness with full force.
don't be timid.
i'll be here for you !!!!
=')
i also terribly sorry to those i offended.
i am sorry.
really i am.
i hope i can make up to you guys.
sorry.

its the last three days with my favourite class!
and people!
i will make sure i cherish these times kaes?
i think i wasted 2 days being horrid.
and i think i should begin to be good.
LOL.
those memories at pasir ris shall not be forgotten!
or should i say.
pasir ris shall not be forgotten.
it brings back both good and old memories.
with ALL of you guys!
how i wish we would never part.
2 effusion rocks.
we rock the world.
i bet no other class could beat ours.
WE RULE.
lol.
its fun isn't it?
to actually have an outing.
then play until we go crazy.
heheh.
bend rules people!
don't obey them!
they are meant to be broken!
anyway, our class is infamous for breaking rules all the time.
hahahs.
good times we shared are always kept in my heart.
i hope its in yours too.
lets just go crazy.
forget those cuts and scratches and aches and pain.
lets just play to our heart's content.
don't be mushy and talk about treasuring and cherishing.
put those words into action NOW!
lol.
lets do it together.
together forever.
2 EFFUSION `O5
WE ROCK.
XD

getting to love someone isn't an easy task for me.
yet.
i willingly get hurt by those jealous and cold moments.
i don't know how to counter those jealousy attacks i get everyday.
its just my wishful part of thinking.
i know it.
you like someone.
i know it.
but i still can't help falling deeper.
it hurts having to say things that contradict how i feel.
yet i just say it.
sometimes it hurts so much.
i feel like screaming.
i feeling like pouring it out.
but to whom can i lash out these thoughts?
i keep these nonsense to myself.
therefore i guess,
i brought such misery to myself.
your image just drifts in my mind.
its there.
and i can't take it off.
whats worse.
i KNOW who you like.
is this enough, or is there more to come?
i think i shouldstop all these foolish thoughts and enjoy my last days with my favourite class.
but you just corrode my thoughts.
with sounds of your words.
it bothers me loads.
and theres nothing i can do.
how i wish i could be alone.
to sort out ho w i feel.
i am jealous.
i am so jealous.
i am very jealous.
someone please stop me.
i can't help but fall deeper.
='(

TOGETHER FOREVER.
NEVER APART.
2 EFFUSIONISTS FOREVER ;
AT HEART.
<3

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.