well-
i just checked my inbox to find loads of junk mail ;
and SOME sensible mail.
o.k.
to this 'horrid' who sent me that email,
i just wish to tell you that,
life isnt just about regrets and sadness.
and just because i sound happy on my blog doesnt mean i have no regrets in my life.
just let go little friend.
=)
perhaps time will wash away all those horrid memories.
cheer up!
thank you for reading my blog anyway.
******

i just got back home yar.
and yue an was SO funny just now.
shes amusing ok.
she freaked me out when she just wanted to top up her ezlink card by screaming.
and do you want to know how she top up her card???
xDDDD
first, she confidently inserts her card into the ATM card slot and presses add value.
then she realises her mistake-
so she takes out her card from the ATM card slot and inserts it into the card reader.
then she presses the add value button.
then she inserts the note.
AND SHE HAPPILY PRESSES THE CANCEL BUTTON.
so the machine rejected the note and her card.
and she says , " HUH?!??"
LOL.
she took thrice the amount of time needed to top up ONE damn card lahs.
hahahhas.
ROFLMAO
its even funniereler if you see the real thing.
xDDDDDD
lalalas~
i went home after yuean got up her bus-
and on the way,
i started recalling all sorts of things that i regret.
even now i do.
like the time i ran away when i could have caught hold of the chance.
or the time i shut up when i could have said something.
or the time i just had to screw the whole thing up by spouting nonsense.
so many regrets in life i can't seem to forget.
if only time could turn back.
maybe what is present now wouldnt be happening yar?
then when i got home i read the email.
and i was a little touched.
many of times ;
its not that you can't let go.
its just that you can't face it.
like knowing its never gonna happen again but you carry on believing it would again.
or knowing something will never be yours but you wish it would.
or thinking that even though you lost it once it'll come back to you again.
yes- i can honestly tell myself such events will never take place.
yet time and again,
i can never supress that little desire that it might belong to me once again.
i guess this is what human nature is about.
greed and selfishness.
i can never overcome this barrier-
till i learn to let go.
well..
i''m not sure about it either.
but what i'm sure about is that i can live with regrets all my life without regretting that i did.
through regrets i learn to cherish.
=)
try again.
you might get back what you lost.
if you don't try, you'll never know.
besides, you might regret if you dont.
its worth a shot.
just do it.
good luck.
x))

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.