when everyone else is glued to the tv screen,
im hiding in my bro's room blogging.
what. the heck.
x))
honestly,
i've never felt worse this week.
i had to wake up so early just to go to the mandai columbarium.
and when i got there,
i almost got suffocated.
smoke, people, fire, incense.
i almost melted under the sun.
yepp.
but i just got so overwhelmed with grief when i saw my grandma's picture.
well.
honestly, i miss her.
alot.
oh well.
then we got home-
and i was observing this old man while walking to the bus stop.
he had a really warm and friendly grandpa look.
his cheeks were sagging and his eyes were sunken.
wrinkles covered his forehead and his eyelids were so thick i couldnt see his eyes at all.
yet,
i suddenly had this thought that his grandhildren were so fortunate to have him.
=)
my aunt also told me about my grandpa.
i had two-
thats to say,
my grandma went through two marriages.
and her first husband was arrested by the japanese in the world war and killed.
so she married my grandpa who was 20 years older than her.
i was somewhat taken aback.
but i concluded, my grandma is one extraordinary woman.
:)
then my mum told me about how we (my bro, my sis and me) were like when we were first born.
my mum said my bro looked very much like a girl because of his fair skin and small physique.
and the nurses loved him alot-
thats to say, he was quite popular with girls during the first few days he was brought to this earth.
me?
oh well.
my mum said i had dark skin so a nurse mistook me for some malay kid.
she even gave me a name : fatimah.
lol.
but my mum said i was really easy to take care of-
because i seldom cry.
all i ever do in my younger years was drink milk and sleep.
xD
my sis.....
shes one spoilt brat.
hahahas.
oh well.
lets not talk about her.
im quite pissed with her.
hmmm.
and then the rain came down in the late afternoon.
it sort of affected my mood.
i was feeling so blue i didnt want to talk.
yet i really wanted to call someone.
oh well.
i cant be bothered with homework.
so i slammed my book shut and went to watch tv.
but i felt so restless i couldnt stay put.
so i got a whole list of housechores from my mum to keep me busy.
hahs....
yepp.
tml's going to be another tiring day..
band and stuff.
oh well...
i think im going off.
ciaos`


if only you knew how i felt.
if only- you knew.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.