you ignored me for exactly ;
16 mths and 23 days.
not one word i heard from you.
other than that four fingers you gestured at me.
not one sound.
nothing.
glances that seem so mean.
i hate you.
you are just one potato head.
i hate you.
maybe i should learn.
learn to let go.
learn to be honest with myself.
to tell myself ;
everything's over.
i'm reluctant.
i know.
but who cares about you now.
you and your bloody life.
whats the use ;
of me trying my very best to keep a lookout for you ;
of me wishing you are fine ;
when you don't reprociate.
what the hell's the use.
i'll leave it.
its wearing me out.
you won't even care.
so what for should i.
there's nothing more to it.
its just a fullstop and thats the end.
your heart is colder than i thought it was.
so much colder.
warmth never seem to existed in it.
and for that ,
i hate you.
at least i found a reason to hate you.
rather than trying to find reasons to keep you.
you bloody fool.
you saw your own happiness vanish before your eyes.
this is what i call :
RETRIBUTION.
you destroyed what you dilligently created.
and thats simply too bad.
too bad for you.
you don't deserve them.
either of them.
you hurt them.
and i found another reason never to forgive you again.
you gave them hope and left them in despair.
i hate you.
call me evil.
i've waited.
more than a year.
almost 2.
but all this waiting has build up this hatred in me.
its you.
all this was brought upon you.
because you deserve it.
i hate you.
i hate you.
too bad.
how i wish everyone would too.
i know i can hate you.
i will hate you.
from this very moment on.
i declare my hatred for you.
you won't bother.
yes you won't.
so i wouldn't either.
you fool.
i hate you.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.