I'm already halfway through e learning week, and life is hectic as per usual. Christmas Party's coming up and it's gonna be really fun. :D (Somehow I know it deep down.)

Flyer distribution today was really awesome. A good workout, and a great bonding session. :D Had so much fun eating ice cream, running around and chatting with the residents at the blocks. I must admit though, that I feared the empty, or damaged units the most. Had totally no idea who I could expect with every unit we knocked upon. Most of the time, the aunties and uncles were really sweet, listening patiently to us as we explained ourselves in a totally alien accent or foreign language. What a beautiful world we live in! With such nice people around. :D

The response from the children in the blocks were good! We had close to a hundred, or maybe a little above the cap! Which was heartwarming, especially since we were pessimistic initially, thinking that we might not even hit 100.

Now I just cannot wait for 5th December! :D Music, Games, Performances, Food, Sweets, Prizes, and CHILDREN!!!! :D:D:D:D

Awww wells. I really hope the committee is just as excited about this! :D *laughs*

Alrights, its time to hit my long report. It is long overdue. :x I hope all the Primary 6 children in Singapore get good grades tomorrow! :D


Sometimes, it hurts when you just walk away and not say goodbye. :( Sudden disappearances cause confusion and sadness. No?

Well: Gradnight is a big affair. So is Chiayin. And Society.
Then I realise projects have been piling and I haven't been bothering about them. Gosh.

I got really upset today. Like really really upset. I know the trigger was not knowing what went wrong and not having anyone explain to me what the matter was on the spot. I hate to be kept in the dark. Especially when the problem was so darn obviously me. I hate to admit it, but I'm really direct. And sometimes it hurts people to be direct. Some times I cannot figure why. But ok. I get the point. Maybe I was too direct.

Really hope I move GNT along its tracks, whether I continue to be in it or not. It's really a test of courage and maturity. It takes time. And I know somehow, with the advice and support from advisors and friends, I will be able to make the best decision to result in mutual benefits.

Christmas Party, Spring Cleaning, and Gradnight Debut. :D Wouldn't life be imperfect without them? :D

I'm wide awake now typing my blog at 2.50am. Have been up doing my self portrait collage for art and design tomorrow. It'll be even more fun in class tomorrow, considering that we will finally be holding crayons and paper to draw and colour. Hooray! :D

Alright, I better get bustling before the night gets older.

I'm insomniac again. Today's gradnight meeting was, funny.
In a sense, I felt like small matters were being blown up into exorbitant sizes for shit. But then again, I cannot ignore the fact that they must have been feeling really uncomfortable or bad to be holding such thoughts.
Sigh* I must have been ignorant to the feelings of others again. Maybe its time I learnt exactly how I could try to make people happier.

I hope the event goes on well. :D And I hope Ms. Koh would treat us well. :D

I kinda missed the feeling, when I felt like I was on top of the world, and nothing else mattered.
Like when I close my eyes, and all else around me disappears - and all I hear are only the beautiful sounds of the tree branches whistling and birds chirping merrily in their nests.
Grappling for warmth from a meek sweater and arms folded tight around myself, the cold wind blows gently on my face and the rays beat lightly on my head.
All is calm, and I find peace.

How wonderful it would be, if I could visit this paradise on earth. :)

Tuesday this week must have been the most brilliant of all days in the week. (:

O.k. So it didn't start off so well in school because zhuangzhuang, rooth and i were all late for econs lecture. But econs lecture went quite well! Ms. Koh was clear and concise, and she provided examples for almost every point or theory she brought up. Well, I guess international economics isn't THAT tough. It's just hard to absorb - which is bad on its own already.

Lunch today was quite fulfilling, and fun. :) Zhuang zhuang bought me Bandung! :D Which kind of saved the horrid taste of the fried noodles from the first stall at canteen 3. Rooth's prawn noodles looked awesomely delicious, so I gave in to temptation for once, and bought another bowl to satisfy my craving! :D

Fulfilling lunches always lead to good classes and happenings for the rest of the day, no? :D

First good thing that happened? SDAR finally issued the cash advance for Graduation Night!

Then BCOMM was fun, fun, FUN! :D I think Ms. Elsie Peng rocks my socks. I feel so comfortable in her class. It's like as if she knew all of us billion of years back and she's now here to guide us through this important phase in life with her joyfulness and high spirits! Class with her is always so brilliant.

My mother and sister were both so delighted (and I have no idea why) when they reached Ngee Ann for the TOP ceremony. I guess I got infected, and I was all smiles. :D My mother was unusually supportive and encouraging throughout the rest of the day till she fell asleep. :) I love her to bits. My sister too.

TOP ceremony wasn't THAT awkward afterall. Had the company of Gary throughout. Okay, so he was sitting QUITE far away. BUT! Maycee was seriously fun to talk to. (: And there was also Eugene was just in front. Plus, considering that my best friend was emceeing and Bah Bah was just beside her, it lightened up the whole atmosphere for me.

The guest speaker from ROHEI was awesome. She had beautiful curls and a dashing voice. Her speech was even greater. I really respect her for her dedication to building up and enriching the lives of youths. Honestly, the enthusiasm and earnest call of devotion was so abundant - she looked so much more sincere in teaching and bringing about positive change in the lives of students and others than every lecturer and student seated within the theatre. :)

Her impactful speech placed a smile on my face the whole night. I remember clearly, and almost vividly, one of her line. I think it goes something like this:

If you don't have a relationship with someone, you're more likely to feel offended when he/she tries to correct you. But when you have a close relationship with someone, you're more likely to accept, and appreciate when that person speaks into your life about what you should have or should not have done.

Her story about the little boy who persisted in making a difference in the lives of the Africans enlightened me much too. I felt very much inferior, to the heart of the 6 year old then. I realized, I lack that form of generosity and selflessness in all that I do. Hah.

The after - ceremony reception was filled with lots of enthusiastic congratulatory wishes from lecturers to students and fellow mates to the award recipients. Though it was like an extravagant attempt to reward the students in a high class manner - I thought that humble words of thanks from the recipients was heartwarming. Well, it just shows how much more determined they were in working hard to do their parents, lecturers and fellow mates proud.
I was simply really glad rooth, gary, my mum and my sister were there together with me. :) Made me feel really fortunate and blessed. :)

Dinner with gary, my mum and sis was great too! My mum kept entertaining us through the meal. Nights like these are hard to come by. :)

Well. Tuesday had its fair share of treats.
I found some more online. When I downloaded a bundle of OST(s) from my current favorite korean drama - Painter of the Wind. :)

The storyline was good. The actors were great. The OSTs were awesome. Their paintings were BRILLIANT. :D

Tuesday Treats. I wonder how Wednesday will be like. :)



Some music make me think of you. Some make me feel fortunate to have you by my side.

My mum was never really understanding of others. Especially when she's angry, upset, or want things to go her way, that is, being stubborn.

I fell asleep at 3. The bed felt so wonderful and comfortable until she shook me up and screamed into my ears at 5.55a.m. to ask if her CD was burned for her friend.

Essentially, anyone asleep who was awaken in such a manner would really turn foul. And I did.

She went on and on and on, on how selfish I was, and I how irresponsible I was becoming, how I always only remember to play and not do her work, and how bad I was at time management. I felt like killing her. I swear.

I was facing books and notes and tutorials the whole of yesterday I never once played. And there she was, shaking her leg and playing her logic games, like as if it were her chore for the day.

Like, hello. Isn't what she's using a computer too. -.- Can't she burn it herself.
Funniest thing is, my current laptop has no CD drive, whilst hers has.

Roar. I'm serious. Every time her tongue goes on lashing me, I feel effing upset.
Now, its 7.01am and I'm supposed to head to school. Upset as I am. I know I'll have to forgive and forget. After all, she's my mum.

What a cruel reality.

Today's newspaper collection drive can actually be summed up with 2 words, 'Awesome' and 'Fulfilling".
Enthusiastic volunteers. Spontaneous and sporting committee members. Awesome time spent with everyone of them. :D
The HighPoint movers were just as passionate about work as ever. (: Especially Caleb. (: He must be a really blessed man of his age. (:

Cycling today was like, the most fun thing that ever happened to me in a group since billions of years ago. haha. So fun lah! Double biking with zhuang zhuang and ruth was seriously hilarious.

Dinner was awesome as well. Today's ban mian (handmade noodle) day! :D So all of us had handmade noodles! :D Yeah, us, meant my family. :D excluding my brother.

So now, here I am. Listening to Michael Buble and Backstreet Boys.
Trying to catch my breath (away from my hectic lifestyle).
Trying to spend some time with myself (in my head) figuring out what I'm feeling at the moment.
It's not easy. I'm serious.

So I was searching up lyrics (cause it's really frustrating when you hear a song and can't make out what the singer is trying to put across), and I came across this line :

I found it glaring at me. So I decided to ponder on it a little longer.

Maybe its the things you do, and what I say. Little things that make moments together hard to forget. (:

Life's so awesome right now. Maybe projects are such a chore to attend to. Gosh, but it's really fun to just throw yourself into it and just be so engrossed in work. :)

Fall hard. Fall fast.
Play hard. Work fast.

I need to find my deep dark secret for art class this Thursday. Interestingly, I find myself looking forward to Thursday each week. Tang is magical. :D

1st of November swiftly went past. I can still recapture every moment of that day spent out. Turning 18 was awesome. Spending 18 months together was more awesome. Altogether, it was a spectacular beginning.

I started 1st of November with a mood swing. Yes. I was overflowing with emotions. I remember my mum cursing me just minutes away from November. She was so mad the whole house turned tensed. I felt so cross and upset for a while that I started sketching people I really cared for to keep my mind off things.

The first few text messages I received at the start of November really cheered me up. It was like instant chocolate filled with endorphins. After I read all of it, I slept. It was pretty late already then.

I woke up at 5am ready to shower, but then decided to give myself the privilege of a Birthday Snooze. HAHA. In the end, the Birthday Snooze lasted till 6! and Gary and his mum were already waiting downstairs.
Seriously, I scurried around the house, washing up and packing at the same time.
After a warm hug, morning greetings and birthday wishes, we set off on the car.

Then we headed to Hong Lim Park for the Eu Yan Seng 130th Anniversary Heritage Walk. HighPoint was one of their beneficiaries, so I thought it would be fun to be down. :D

Gary drove past Clarke Quay on the way to Hong Lim, and woah, it was all filled with sexy and scantily dressed people puking all over and sitting around all over the place. I wonder if that's what 18 year olds do.

I loved the walkathon. Seriously made me wake up and I felt refreshed instantly! :D Met DJ, the President of Highpoint, Jessie, Angela, Steven, Caleb and Gabriel. Felt so happy. I had no idea why then. But I guess it was prolly because it felt good to have friends like them in this world. Friends who would so sincerely give a good hearty laugh or cheery smile to encourage and never to put down. :)
Gary and his mum were really enthusiastic. :D

Had breakfast at Nanyang's old cafe. :) A satisfying breakfast led us to a satisfying shower at Gary's place. He presented his gift for me there. It was nicely wrapped with pretty paper and brightened up with a sparkly ribbon. He kept me really curious and anxious because he insisted that I opened it at home only! :D

Had delicious prawn noodles before heading to East Coast! :D Rode a double bike around the area and took little breaks here and there to enjoy the wonderful sea view and refreshing sea breeze. :) We had a picnic, too! Gary prepared KONG BA PAO! :D And agar agar (which was damn delicious) and some drinks. Newspapers and the sun kept us occupied through to the evening. Relaxing warmth from the sun rays, the sound of crashing waves, and the cheerful laughter of children in the vicinity. Made us feel like we were in paradise. :)

Soaked in the sea for a little while before we concluded that the sand and water were much better over in Sentosa! Oh wells, it was fun still! :D
Showered in the public shower then we decided to make our way to Thomson Road's ice cube for the most out of this world's cheese fries! :D

Ok. But we detoured to the Marina Barrage. I managed to persuade Gary to let me open the present somehow! :D And gosh, I was super touched. :x T.T
(Thank you Gary, I love you very much! <3 and the present too!)

Toured around the area before we headed off to our actual destination. :D Cheesy fries was super cheesy, and I guess we were already tired. The day ended too fast, but I loved it heaps.

I almost didn't want to leave Gary alone. But I knew he was tired too. I tried my best to keep my eyes open in the car to capture every last moment we were together.
When I went in the lift, I shut my eyes all the way till I reached the 6th level.

My mum got me a beautiful Puma handbag for my birthday. :D She thought it was practical, since I always loved to carry handbags. I thought it was awesome.

But the 3rd best present was sitting on my table in a simple envelope. Gosh, the content was the best birthday gift. :)
Praise the lord.

Facebook wishes flooded my inbox. Thanks a bunch to the people who dropped a message! :D I think it reached 80 in total. :D

gosh - i miss my birthday. :) It was awesome.

Happy 18th Month Gary. Happy 18th Birthday Sylvia.
We love the world. :D

Its day 2 of the new semester. Kinda loved First Day. All the excitement and hustle bustle of school made me hyped up. Accounting lecture was awesome too, though the lecturer spent hell loads of time trying to make her computer work. (:

Second day started at 7.30am. I was shaken awake by my sister to watch the Korean thriller, Cinderella with her. Man oh man, it really made my eyes open wide for the next couple of hours. Met Gary over at Bishan before heading to school. (:

I was pretty much just as excited over the Economics lecture today too! (: Turns out, the legendary lecturer and tutor was just as brilliant as everyone has said her to be. Sharp as blades, her tongue lashes none stop. She was smart, observant and ever so tactful with her words. Maybe they call that sarcasm. Oh wells. I loved the way she did her lecture. But honestly? I really need to brush up on my knowledge of world issues, widen my perspectives of the current economy and also try to pick up some knowledge by tapping on hers. (:

Though exciting, the lecture left me exhausted, and hungry for more information. But well. Disappointment came along. It wasn't that hard to detect that kind of 'i just want to get it over and done with' attitude from people around me. It was a good stunt of trying to express discontentment with a choice willingly made, whilst covering it up to portray a positive self image. Such hypocrisy.

Sigh* I'm just gonna breathe. And make this semester awesome. Bad habits die hard. But no matter how hard, I'm just so determined to make them die.

I'm meeting the SDAR Director tomorrow for some weird dialogue session and gosh, I'm still wide awake. :( Zhuangzhuang had to go off cause he mum was making her sleep.

Fortunately Waternutlon's awake. Hahs. He's really funny, and I guess its that kind of frank, honest sharing sessions that made the friendship last so long. (: HAHA.

Meeting today was long, but the agenda was actually short. So I didn't exactly figure how it got extended for 5 hours. Anyhoos. At least we still got things done. (:
I'm really worried about the publicity though. I mean, we can have the most fabulous of posters, but WTH if it can't be displayed?!

I hope I get to brainwash the director tomorrow a little at least. :S HAHA.

Alright, lunch with Gary's gonna be fun. And I miss zhuangzhuang, ahshean and roooth! :( Man.

One more week to the new semester and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. I'm like so addicted to my events now. Seeing it progress everyday makes me darn excited and impatient. Sometimes, I can't wait for the event to take place, and sometimes I just wish I had more time to work with.

Especially Gradnight. I'm just so grateful to have team mates who are calmer. LOL. They kinda, keep me to the ground, and they sometimes look beyond the distance I've covered. Thank goodness someone created the word team. LOL

I totally left the Christmas Party at the back of my mind though. Time to give it some perspiration. (:

I think I've met my fair share of inspiring people, but woah. After the conversation with Sebastian at the Supperclub, he seriously left me speechless. Maybe its because, its the first time I've encountered a person who's pursuing the same diploma as me, in the same educational institute, and has come so far in life, especially in terms of his career. When he posed my the challenge of greater and better publicity, it felt like, a threat initially. But somehow, I cannot be sure whether it's my ego again, that pushed me to accept that challenge in haste. Whatever the case, I'm gonna work hard to work it out. Because this time round, theres no win or lose situation, its a win win for the both of us. (:

Watched Surrogates with Gary today. Totally rocked. We almost chose Phobia 2 to be the movie for the night - until we watched the trailer on youtube. Gosh, it made my hair stand. LOL. Surrogates had a good plot with a subtle and meaningful ending. (: Definitely worth the time and money spent. (:

Haven't spent much time with Gary like that though. (: So it felt good. Ultimate relaxation. Like a real 'slack and chill out' session for once. Hung out at TCC @ Pomo, walked around Sunshine Plaza, had a bowl of yummy Braised Beef Noodles, and ended the night with an awesome movie. :D

Okay, my mum sent me a stinker sms, which wasn't so nice. :( But okay, she's a mother. And I guess she has her ways of making me listen to her. LOL. Alright, off I am to sleep. :D

BTW, OMG, IM SO DANG PROUD OF MY LAPTOP. IT LASTED THE WHOLE DAY. ON BATTERY AT HIGH PERFORMANCE LEVEL. LOL. AND NOW IT STILL HAS 2 HOURS OF BATTERY LEFT! HAHAHA. THIS IS SERIOUSLY AWESOME. :D

tata!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION.